I told Matt about it and made him feel it. He guessed it was probably stress from the car stuff. I don't really remember much else about how I felt that day. Right after we bought the car, we went to Matt's sister's house for dinner. Then on to my Mom's and brother's to show them--the car, not the lump. I remember mentioning it to them and I even believe I said it was cancer. I joked about it a lot...saying it was cancer. Many o' people can (unfortunately) testify to that. I knew it was...I think you just know. You have that nagging feeling that won't go away.
I've learned a lot since all of this. One thing is to live life. Do the things you want. You know the one thing I've always to do??? Counsel prisoners. Spare me the lecture, Mom. :) I started the process last summer before my diagnosis. But on teaching instead of counseling. The FCI in Fort Worth was looking for Special Education Teachers. Just as I started the process, I was diagnosed and told to only work part-time. Well, that never happened, but I did quit my in-home training I did afterschool (per my oncologist) so working at the prison, as well, was a definite no-no. But not this summer! I look forward to taking on a new challenge and helping people succeed...which is what my life is intended for. Now...who wants to go with me??? :)
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YOu have been on my mind sssoooooo much lately...I think your last post might of had something to do with that. I hope you are feeling well. Love you! (we WILL get together soon)
*shakes head and sighs*
Before you started typing your re-cap I said to myself, "she was at the Volvo dealership buying her car". SEE, we do pay attention :) A lot has happened this past year but one thing's for sure, you are here, healthy and beautiful! That means everything! You are certainly right about living your life! I can't say I am brave enough to go with you but I applaud your passionate heart! xoxo
Kim...Wow. I found your blog through facebook and it's really inspiring.
I totally agree with you on living life. I was so glad to read that you kicked the cancer. I hope for you that one day cancer is just an after thought of a distant memory.
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